I was driving on my way to the hairdresser this week and was overwhelmed by this feeling. You know, that indescribable feeling that is kept deep inside and sometimes swirls to the surface. It’s a heavy kind of feeling, sometimes you contain it and other times you just have to let it out.

I pulled up, and the feeling had surfaced, it’s like a tap that’s spraying everywhere, and you can’t control it. I found myself sobbing. Not sure of the mumbled words that followed, “having a child with a disability is hard God” “Jesus I need you” “God this is so hard”…

Then I wiped my face, took a deep breath and I gathered the courage to walk in and get my hair cut.

The journey of a mother with a child with extra medical needs is a special kind of journey.

So… to the Medical Mumma. This one is for you. I see you.

It’s unfair sometimes and it’s ok to admit it!

The chronic grief is real, I see you as you cry yourself to sleep.

I see you as your mind is swirling with all the things you are organising, the ‘to-do list’, the emails to reply to, appointments to book, NDIS, therapists, doctors and school all while managing your other family.

I see you as you face another hospital appointment.

I see you as you hear the word ‘complex’ again.

I see you as you feel the disappointment that another therapist has left, and you have to start all over again.

I see you as you watch your child endure the unimaginable.

I see you.

You aren’t alone.

I see you as you watch on as others do what you wish your child could do.

I see you as your wipe those tears away, take that deep breath, and keep going.

I also see you as you appreciate that little step they made today. That step is a mountain to us, and to others it’s just a step.

I see you as your heart is warmed by the joy that they bring you.

I see you holding their hand.

I see you love them in this way that’s hard to put into words.

I see you care when no one else sees.

I see you.

I see you get back up again.

Piper started Year Three this week. Grief reared its ugly head again.

New year, new teacher and a new SNEA (Special Needs Education Assistant).

I’m ready though, I’m ready to keep going, keep persevering and keep enduring.

I see myself… and I see you!

God is with us. We can do it! Xx

So, let’s not get tired of doing what is good. At just the right time we will reap a harvest of blessing if we don’t give up.
– Galatians 6:9

If your faith remains strong, even while surrounded by life’s difficulties, you will continue to experience the untold blessings of God! True happiness comes as you pass the test with faith, and receive the victorious crown of life promised to every lover of God!
– James 1:12 TPT